What Martyrs Means to Me

Since I first saw Martyrs last August, I’ve rewatched it more times than anyone normally would, judging by the number of “it was good, but I never want to see it again” reviews. Why does this movie speak to me so strongly and why do I keep feeling the urge to watch it again and again?

Martyrs is a violent movie—obviously. And of course lots of horror movies are very, very violent, but even after my first viewing I felt there was something different about Martyrs’ violence. At the very least, it’s part of the subject matter, rather than merely part of the presentation. 

The movie’s three acts are distinct and mark shifts in tone, but they also offer a change in perspective on the cult’s legacy of violence. Alexandra West spells it out plainly in her book Films of the New French Extremity: “The audience experiences what these women have, in reverse. The beginning of the film deals with the aftermath of trauma, the midsection deals directly with the trauma, and the final third deals with the initial capture and torture.” 

In the first act we see how Lucie’s trauma torments and drives her and we see the bond she and Anna have built in the wake of it. The second act shows us way too much about what she and other victims are subjected to, while also removing any doubt Anna or the audience has about Lucie’s past. While this act has some of the movie’s grossest moments on screen, the violence has already been done and many of these moments happen while we watch Anna try to help Sarah. The third act takes us to the conclusion of what we’ve learned to fear from the cult, but suggests a resolution for Anna that’s borne out of her bond with Lucie.

Rather than only being put on the screen, violence is the language the entire movie uses. It’s reflected in the victims and perpetrators and the violence they’ve experienced, committed, and witnessed. 

What keeps drawing me back to this movie is the character of Anna. She’s not a complicated character—almost one-dimensional—and her only impulse throughout the movie is to help people. As the first two acts are driven by her efforts to help Lucie, Gabrielle, and Sarah, the question asked is “How can she help someone who’s this traumatized—emotionally, psychologically, physically?” Each time, she can’t. And when the third act rolls around, the question now is “Who’s going to help her?” No one, not even herself. For me, the core of the movie is Anna’s acts of kindness in a world that says they don’t matter. If there’s no saving the victims of this movie, then are Anna’s efforts meaningless? 

In my own depression, I often feel a martyr impulse: thoughts of uselessness and powerlessness, tempered by intrusive fantasies of martyrdom that tell me the only way of having purpose is to sacrifice myself for others. The movie feels like a controlled space in which Anna dramatizes the jerkbrain thoughts in my head. The fact that the movie says she’s doomed to failure doesn’t matter; her persistent acts of aid and kindness are what give her purpose. 

The last facet of Martyrs that is meaningful to me is on a meta level: it’s a satire of the way women (characters and actors) are treated in horror movies. First, it’s right there in the title; we expect women to give their bodies over for our entertainment. Further, it’s in the way Mademoiselle claims that women are more receptive to the divine. It’s an on-the-nose expression of one of the most insidious tropes in horror: that women are closer to nature and more susceptible to the supernatural. 

Finally, there is the infamous scene in the third act in which Anna is beaten in captivity. The scene is cold and clinical, devoid of the fetishizing and violating camerawork we’ve been desensitized to. It is the most challenging scene in the movie, and it doesn’t get any easier on subsequent viewings. That’s the point though: why wouldn’t it be hard to watch? Would it be easier if the camera crawled up her leg or focused on her underwear while she moaned? It’s ostensibly what many other horror movies are too gleefully willing to show you while sexualizing the violence, and the viewer should feel horrible. 

So why is this movie where I live now? Its pieces come together to form an expression of pain—that which lingers and that which we fear—and the violence we may be capable of. But within this is a force that doesn’t stop trying to heal others, even though the pain and violence are inevitable and consume all. The movie leaves us with the word “witness”; this is a movie that holds pain and kindness in equal regard.

XXX8 Recap

I started this list in July 2018, and in those 6 months I watched 104 movies from the list. It was definitely a proof of concept for me—I exposed myself to a lot of foreign horror and movies forgotten by the mainstream, and I really enjoyed watching them.

There were two unexpected benefits of using the list: 1) It helped get me past the choice paralysis that often eats up a lot of my time; and 2) Because I’m watching these from a mindset of curiosity, I’m not bothered by “bad” movies—what I came to call the List Immunity. I’m happy to say I never once felt like I’d wasted my time, which otherwise happens when I’m emotionally invested in the expectation of a movie to entertain me.

For now I’ll just post what I watched from 2018’s list; if I want to highlight movies later I’ll do that in separate posts.


  • A Quiet Place
  • Annihilation
  • Apostle
  • Cam
  • Hereditary
  • Mandy
  • Summer of 84
  • Suspiria
  • The Cloverfield Paradox
  • The Night Eats the World
  • Unsane


  • Alien Raiders
  • Cloverfield
  • Coming Soon
  • Deadgirl
  • Doomsday
  • Eden Lake
  • I Sell the Dead
  • Lake Mungo
  • Left Bank
  • Let the Right One In
  • Long Weekend
  • Martyrs
  • Mirrors
  • One Missed Call
  • Pontypool
  • Quarantine
  • Sauna
  • Splinter
  • Surveillance
  • The Midnight Meat Train
  • The Ruins
  • The Strangers
  • Untraceable


  • Blade
  • Bride of Chucky
  • Deep Rising
  • Halloween H20: 20 Years Later
  • Phantasm IV: Oblivion
  • Phantoms
  • Ringu
  • Serial Experiments Lain
  • Sombre
  • Sphere
  • The Faculty
  • The Quiet Family
  • Tomie
  • Urban Ghost Story
  • Urban Legend
  • Vampires
  • Whispering Corridors


  • A Nightmare on Elm Street 4: The Dream Master
  • Child’s Play
  • Daffy Duck’s Quackbusters
  • Dead Ringers
  • Friday the 13th Part VII: The New Blood
  • Halloween 4: The Return of Michael Myers
  • Hellbound: Hellraiser II
  • Killer Klowns from Outer Space
  • Monkey Shines
  • Night of the Demons
  • Phantasm II
  • Pumpkinhead
  • Sorority Babes in the Slimeball Bowl-O-Rama
  • Tales from the Gimli Hospital
  • The Blob
  • The Brain
  • The Serpent and the Rainbow
  • The Vanishing
  • They Live
  • Vampire’s Kiss


  • Attack of the Killer Tomatoes!
  • Dawn of the Dead
  • Empire of Passion
  • Eyes of Laura Mars
  • Halloween
  • I Spit on Your Grave
  • Invasion of the Body Snatchers
  • Jaws 2
  • Long Weekend
  • Magic
  • Martin
  • Piranha
  • The Fury


  • Destroy All Monsters
  • Dracula Has Risen from the Grave
  • Genocide
  • Goke, Body Snatcher from Hell
  • Hour of the Wolf
  • Kuroneko
  • Night of the Living Dead
  • Spirits of the Dead
  • The Devil Rides Out
  • The Green Slime
  • Witchfinder General


  • Attack of the 50 Foot Woman
  • Fiend Without a Face
  • Horror of Dracula
  • I Married a Monster from Outer Space
  • The Blob
  • The Fly
  • The Haunted Strangler
  • The Revenge of Frankenstein


  • Abbott and Costello Meet Frankenstein